It's been a long time since I've written. I don't even remember what my last blog was about and I was too lazy to reread it before I started writing this. I haven't been wanting to blog because I haven't had anything that wasn't depressing to say. I feel like I complain about Tallahassee a lot, but I realize that that wasn't stress. I just hate it here. I miss home, family, friends, and Thomas. I think this summer I reevaluated what it worth complaining about.
I feel like this summer has been nothing but high stress. Can you see why I didn't want to post? Who wants to read that crap? What person wants to rehash it all? I've had a lot thrown in my face the past two months or so. I completely stopped working out, and I feel as though my body is in safe mode. Eating junk again, always tired. Things that I liked going to do take an immense effort to get me to go to now.
I want to say things are getting better. They are. However, I'm an extremely impatient person, so I imagine my doubt in the previous sentences is because it's not getting where I want it to be as fast as I had hoped. I am really struggling with the my plan versus God's plan thing lately.
Anyway, this summer has shown me how much people change too. I've lost friends and discovered insane things about other friends. It blows my mind thinking about freshmen year of high school and how things are now. A lot of people in my life are really struggling right now too.
I guess what this blog is really about is how much I've been observing lately. I've been making changes. I've been putting forth CRAZY effort on habits I have that I KNOW are bad and finally working towards fixing that. Also just observing my friends and family. Their trials and achievements. Also just seeing where my life is heading, well sort of, like I said my plan doesn't seem to matter anymore. I don't know. I feel like I'm rambling but it's been a lot to take in. I was just wondering if anyone else is experiencing this sort of thing right now. Maybe this is just one of those life changing times? Like transitions from high school to college and not college to life?
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Well i haven't run in weeks since i've been busy. Let's start exercising again. Starting tuesday. I'll be looking for a post complaining about p90x.
ReplyDeletelol Tuesdays are bad for me. I work 7am-3pm, then I train volunteers from 6:30-9:45ish. I kind of have just enough time to shower and eat before leaving again.
ReplyDeleteI am going to soon though. I don't think P90x is for me, but I'm going to do my own cardio based routine with their videos. I wish i could run stadiums with all you guys in gainesville. I'm scared to go in tallahassee, but sometimes I really feel like running...until I actually am running of course lol
1. I am proud of you.
ReplyDelete2. It's something in the water. I feel like everyone is growing and changing that I talk to in some way. God must be working overtime.
3. I miss you, and I'm sorry I haven't been as available lately.
4. This is me. asking you on an aim date. so yeah. Let's make that happen and stuff.