Never Ending Bills

I'm still not feeling like blogging lately :( I've been feeling sad. I'm not working as much because they cut hours at work. So I'm not making as much money. I just applied to four graduate schools and that racked up a huge expense. $120 for application fees, $40 dollars for transcripts, $92 to have my test scores sent, and $25 to send addressed envelopes for my professors to mail my letters of recommendation. Coupled with Christmas presents, I have a huge credit card bill now. It's really depressing.

I applied for another position at Winn-dixie. It's a full time position so I'm really hoping it works out. I need the money really badly. I have to start paying my student loans in April. I think it's going to take me that long just to get my credit card bill down.

Stuff around the apartment feels really tense lately too. I'm stressed out and I feel like I always have so much to clean around it. It's stupid. I hate my apartment complex. I can't wait to move. I don't feel like I'm going to get into any of the graduate schools I applied to either so that would mean another year in Gainesville. I feel so out of my element. I haven't been able to get a job in the psychology field. This year hasn't bettered me at all so I don't see how I'll be even more competitive this time around.

This post is turning out to be really depressing. I'm sitting at home, alone, and bored. The dog is super hyper and I just want to be asleep already. Bleh. I guess I'll go lay down.