Control

I posted something on my facebook the other day that I really wanted to elaborate on here:

"Control is an oscillating idea. No one person has it all at any given time"

This thought came to me when I was upset. I felt like in my present situation, I was the one in control. I felt like I had the power because I had the least to lose. Like a ton of bricks, suddenly it hit me that I wasn't. I felt like I had control, maybe, but not any longer. The ball was in someone else's court now. This didn't mean I couldn't get it back, but when? How?

I didn't like this, needless to say. I felt powerless, and my emotions were probably part of the reason I lost control. I don't know why this was such a profound moment for me, but it was. This new idea of control blew my mind.

What do I do with this new knowledge...?



The best answer I can come up with is to play the hand I've been dealt, and play it well. One more victory for me recently.

Who's in control now?