No Time

This has been one of the most confusing weekends I've had in a while. I have no idea where I'm going, or what I'm doing right now. I'm just trying to get by with as little damage as possible.

So much is going to be happening in the next few weeks. I'm trying to keep track of everything but so much is changing. I really hate times like this. I can't be excited about any of the good changes because I can't picture what my life will be like in the next few months. It's stressful. I'm a big planner.

I've been praying a lot, and trying to learn and make the changes I need to right now, but it's really hard. I want so badly for things to be a certain way, and I feel like I'm fighting against what's going to happen anyway.

I don't know. This is where I'm at though. I'm scared.