Why? Seriously....Just Why?

I'm so unhappy I don't even know what to do with myself. I don't have the energy to do the things i need to get done during the day, but if I lay around and just rest, it makes me even more sad just thinking about things. It's very debilitating being this way :/

I know everyone asks this question, but I don't understand why this is happening to me. Why do I deserve this feeling so frequently? Why are people so close to me keep letting me down epically? I CAN'T make sense of it. I'm trying so hard not to become bitter inside, but feeling like this, coupled with the past is just gnawing away at my view of humanity. I want so badly for someone to step up right now and be dependable for me. Please.

I feel extra crappy about the future now too. Graduation is not going to be the happy ceremony I imagined. I wanted so badly for it to be a certain way, with certain people there supporting me. Why can't I have at least that? My graduation, my way. Why?

I can't come to terms with how the situation is continuing to get worse. The person doesn't seem sorry at all. It's all about them, and how soon it's fixed for them, and how they're treated when I'm the hurt one when it's all said and done. Evasion of responsibility and selfishness is all I see.

I really just don't get it :(