Sweet Summertime

Things haven't been so great lately. I've been feeling really unhappy and agitated. I guess I'm just feeling blah in general. I hate my speech class and it hasn't really hit me that this is my last semester at FSU. I really just want to have things figured out. I've been applying for some jobs in Gainesville. Amanda and I found an apartment we really like, but we have to wait on her to get the money for the deposit. I hope things work out for the fall. It's going to be my first time in life completely out on my own. No financial aid to help me. No more taking out loans, it's paying off loans time. It's really weird.

A lot of exciting things are happening this summer too though. I got the paid position at the crisis hotline for training volunteers. I've done this for three consecutive semesters now, but this will be the first time I get paid for it, so that's pretty awesome. I hope it's an awesome batch of volunteers. I really like training the new people. I feel like I can really relate to them, having been through it myself, and having been sort of a worry wort when I went through it.

I also booked a trip to New Jersey for September. One of my sister's best friends is getting married labor day weekend. My sister asked if I wanted to go and I thought it'd be a fun thing for us to do. The air fare wasn't that bad. I'm kind of nervous though. It'll be the first time I've been to New Jersey since we helped move my dad down to Florida. I feel like I'm going to stick out like sore thumb. I'm kind of excited too though. I've kept in touch with a few people and it'd be pretty cool to see them. Plus I never got to experience New Jersey like my sister did because I was raised in Florida for my influential years. It should be interesting visiting with my sister and her friends. I'm really excited.

Mallory and I went kayaking on the FSU Reservation today. The Rez is 73 acres of land FSU owns for the students. There's a lake and they have a bunch of stuff for students to do for free. It was so fun. I've never been kayaking before, but it wasn't that hard. It was relaxing to be outside, with the breeze, gliding along the lake. It was perfect timing too. We were on the water for about an hour, and right as we got to shore they started clearing the lake because a storm was coming.



I have to finish up a speech that's due Monday. This class is seriously stressing me out. I get such anxiety from speaking in public. It's not being in front of a crowd, I don't get too nervous doing presentations at the hotline, it's just the actual speech. I hate it. It's too formal to be comfortable. Please God make these next six weeks fly by.