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So last night was all about Maroon 5, and today I've been listening to Forever The Sickest Kids album 'Underdog Alma Mater'. So many of these songs have awesome lyrics, but what makes it even better are the beats to the songs. The lyrics can be about something completely depressing or something infuriating, but the sound that they have just makes you super pumped. I love it.

"It's a terrible thing to know what you want
And to know you can't have it at all
All I wanted was to let you know how I...
It's a terrible thing"

The above lyrics are from a song called The Way She Moves. I have a lot of things I want. I'm grateful, even if it's not something I brag about in conversation, but there's always that one thing someone always wants, and never gets. This appealed to me. I also like the line 'all I wanted was to let you know how I...'. SO much lately I feel like I'm holding back. It's unnerving. Most times I'm not like this, but for some reason I can't bring myself to be honest about how I'm feeling on a certain topic. I really hope I don't regret it. That line, coupled with the '...' reflects how I feel. Like the person was going to finally tell them, but they choked.



"I know that I shouldn't let it get to me
(But it does, and who am I kidding?)
A dead end job and a lack of family
This town gets to me"

These lyrics are from their song 'Catastrophe'. If you know anything about me, you know how much I've hating being away from home, family, and friends. You would know the terrible experiences I've had in Tallahassee and how since day one I've wanted to leave. This has been one of the hardest times in my life. It's not unexpected though. The transition from high school to college is a big one. It was the first time I was on my own, and far enough away from home. It was my first taste of 'the real world'. This time of year is kind of hard for adjusting. I came off of winter break loathing being back after being home so long, and before I knew it, spring break was here and the same thing happened. So, needless to say, these lyrics appealed to me for numerous reasons.



"I should've known better not to wait around
Why did I come home, because I hate it here
I should've know better not to wait around
I'm getting rid of my phone and I made it clear
I should've know better not to wait around

I never did, never did I ever
Love anyone other than you"

These lyrics are from the song 'My Worst Nightmare'. I think they appealed to me because I'm feeling very confused lately. I'm not sure whether or not to stay strong in decisions I've made, or to just throw in the towel. Regardless of the actual choice, when one has to ask themselves that question, it's always frustrating. Do I stay or do I go?



Also, the entire song 'Phone Call' is amazing. Look up the lyrics. Story of my life.



In other non-music related life, I'm feeling left out lately. It's weird though, I really have no reason to feel this way. Honestly, no, I have no idea what's wrong, but I'm not feeling very happy. Maybe it's stuff with UCF. Maybe I feel like I'm being left behind. Maybe it's something else. I have no idea, it's been confusing. It's a mix of sadness/loneliness and anger. I wish it was clearer what's causing it so I could deal with these feelings.