Scattered

This blog might seem all over the place. I haven't posted in a few days, but it's hard to organize my thoughts right now, so here's the gist of what I've been thinking about:


The past few days have been pretty nice. It's a much needed change from the two week angry/depression I've been in. I've gotten a lot of my work done for school and several of my classes are canceled this coming week. It's nice knowing I'll have a lot of time to relax coming up. Robbie's state exam is this Wednesday. He's crashing at my apartment to study and be closer to the testing site. It's been fun hanging out, but I'm also trying to be the study nazi and motivate him. I enjoy the company though, seriously. It makes me miss Amanda though. It's been so long since she's been able to come to Tallahassee for a few days.

On another random positive note, I've been trying to eat healthier lately. I rid my apartment of almost all of the junk food, and all I have is sandwich meat, fruit, salad, yogurt, and granola to eat. I've seen small results so far, so I'm happy with it. I'm trying not to burn out on health food though. I really like salad and yogurt, but I need to find healthier entrees. Sandwiches are gonna get old REAL fast. I've been trying to do some sit ups every night, and once my volunteer schedule calms down, I'm gonna hop back into my cardio routine. I want to feel better about myself. I'm trying not to make excuses for myself, but honestly, I don't have time to work out when my schedule is full force like it has been. Things are calming down though, so back into it soon.

I also started looking at some apartments online in the Gainesville area. I don't know what's going to happen with UCF. They have until April 15th before the notify me on if a spot is offered to me. I also applied to NOVA but I really don't want to go to NOVA, so I'm kind of accepting that I might be taking a year off. I don't want to say that the idea is growing on me, but it kind of is. For the wrong reasons though. I want to be closer to home, to my family, and to my friends. That scares the crap out of me though. I feel like I'm going to get comfortable if I take time off, and I'm going to put my career goals on the back burner. I'm really torn on what I want right now. Obviously if I get accepted to UCF, I'm going to go, but taking a year off is really looking appealing now...

I'm hoping these past few awesome days are going to get me out of this funk for a while. I still really don't know the main cause of it, but being unhappy for so many consecutive days is really only making things worse. I'm not trying to be a bummer right now though. I'm happy right now. Things are good right now. :)

That's all I have for an update.