So....finally heard back from UCF. Not accepted. I don't know how to feel about it. I got used to the idea of taking a year off but it still makes me nervous. I don't know what I'm going to do on this year. You can't just work. You have to stay competitive. I don't want to stay in Tallahassee. I originally thought of moving to gainesville for the year. I'm really confused now. I don't know what's going to happen with my mom.
I kind of feel like maybe I wasn't supposed to go to school this year because of what's going on with my mom. I could work and help support her, but I don't put a whole lot of weight in fate.
I really don't know what to think or feel. I'm getting more sad about it than when I first read the email this morning. I have those feelings of failure again. If I'm not competitive enough now, how on earth am I going to get more competitive with the year off? I don't want to stay in Tallahassee and all of my opportunities are here.
I don't know much anymore. :(
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I'm so sorry hon. Something better is gonna come your way. You are NOT a failure. Get yo phone <3.
ReplyDeleteYou have accomplished more than most people our age, you are anything but a failure.
ReplyDeleteThe fact that you are wanting to take care and support your mom is honorable, and THAT ALONE should not make you feel like a failure. There are plenty people your age that wouldn't respond in that manner.
Just know that God has something better planned for you, and when He reveals that to you, it will be worth the wait.
They just don't know what they are missing out on!
ReplyDeleteI haven't known you long, but from what I have been learning about you I can tell that you are going to do great things Jessica. :)
I know you don't want to stay in Tallahassee, but if you decide to let me know. I may be in the market for a new roommate. :)
<3 Miranda